its sad to seee pple change, especially over things that arent worth changing
of course u can change for e better or for e worst.
but e worst type of changes is to change ur attitude towards ur frens.

its rather sad to see how pple in ocs change.
start turning their back against each other, backstabbing....talking behind one another's back...and stuff liddat. i dun understand whats that for.
i dun have such problem when i'm in bmt or in sispec.
are pple in ocs too smart? or too cunning?
or is their ultimate goal e sword?
stupid sword....

i had a fren, who too, had change.
for whatever reason i do not know.
maybe its some family problem that changed her.
she wasnt like that before.
although our frenship thru out e decades has been going on and off and on and off.
but this time it seems different
its more like a "i wan to avoid u" kinda feeling.
why ah? why liddat?
now e way we talk, its like stranger
e feeling arent there anymore.
it feels so weird now.
i wan to talk to u.
but e conversation we are having recently,
seems to be just for e sake of conversing, nothing more than tat.
i dun understand why u are shutting urself up, either from other pple to, or just away from me.
i dun remember doing anything to u, did i?
wish u will know how i feel man...but i doubt u ever will...
hope things will get better....
if not we will just be a pair of stranger, who know each other very well....

got 4 days mc!
all e way to thursday...shiok...but damn bored..
woke up this morning and my right wrist cannot bend at all
but i was still debating if i should report sick a not.
so i prepare my stuff and get ready for my navigation exercise.
but to play safe i sound this out to my instructor, and was immediately pull out of exercise.

went to e medical center after that. doctor dunno whats going on. my wrist was swelling liao...
suspected fracture. so i was sent to alexander hospital for xray.
no fracture. only tendon inflammation. which i dunno whats that la...i only know my wrist damn pain and cannot really move at all. i guess e only good thing is i get to go home and sleep all i wan for 4 days...shiok!

this week is the most disguisting week i ever had...
booked in on sat nite, cause sunday got exercise hunter, close terrain navigation at lower pierce reservoir. half way thru check pt 2, started down pour, all e tracks are flooded, everywhere is flooded in fact. so we were all soak from head to toes.....and the exercise still must continue. so we continue with e exercise till 5 pm, den we went back to camp with that freak soak uniform and water filled fieldpack. but this is still ok as we are goin back to camp anyway.

weds to friday, 3 day 2 nights in tekong.
1st day is our exercise robinson crusoe, island navigation.
distance between each check pt = the length of e island.
weather = rain the whole day till 6 pm.
whole body is drench again, all equipment wet....
and the worst thing, we got to sleep in that attire!!!
so at nite, we will remove our boots and socks....and some will change into a new pair of dry top.
but the next morning...all got to change back to the dirty pair again...can u imagin....after having a nice sleep...u got to wake up...wear ur soak socks and boots...and ur wet top.....the feeling....is really can die...and the last day also the same...

so basically...3d2n in tekong, i was only dry for a couple of hours, and my boots is filled with water all e time, my foot didnt have any chances to dry at all....so u can imagin how wrinkle up it is at e end of e exercise...

and whats new...e next day after e exercise end..which is on sat, we had 12km endurance run.... damn stupid...all ran with blisters and abrasions.....stupid ocs...

peiling>> haha....can log in meh? no sercurity or firewall to block? haha..yea i'm trying to tahan~ u tahan too man~ 19 more days!

irritating uray>> yes i do update my blog...and 200 bucks is too wasteful to spend on chocolates for u liao...i think i rather go buy dog food for stray dogs...haha..

pinky>>*FArts*

yea gold for ippt, extra 200 bucks to spend plus no more ippt for me anymore~
now must chiong for SEOC...stupid..

met up with e jk jwee ch swee and alvin last nite, drinking talk cock play mahjong, typical relac jack life...but thats only for 1 day...den 6 more days of no life before i can relac again.
sick of infantry man....

anyway uploaded my ocs photos into some webshot thinggy, link is on e top.

pinky>> haha..no time for roundmomo this few week....too tired liao..haha..
sheena>> must wait till weekends la..i doubt got any more nites off coming up...

*where are you?*

getting more restless~
pro term just started.
this week is e first week, but it seems like this week got more den 7 days...
seems like never ending
e pace increase significantly.
more and more physically demanding.
mentally is still ok.
dunno how long my body can take,
but i'm getting real tired already...
i'm sian of everything...
i'm now just living day by day,
nothing to look forward to...
stress out by things that are coming up.
i hate this feeling...
who will understand?
sigh....
where are u...
e one that understands...