wooo...
suddenly i realise,
this blog still got pple know eh..
ahah..like out of the blue 4 pple tagged.
thats a record breaking thing.
ahah

anyway,
i got the sword of merit thinggy, and got a bronze bayonet too~ the knife that is fixed infront of the rifle? yup. thats for being the platoon best. i think if i bring it home next week...my mum will think i'm trying to rob someone or what man..

anyway thats the happy part. but getting all this also means one thing, i'm 99% comfirm going to unit le...i dun mind going to a unit, but i dun wan to take second year man...i wan to take first year man..and now the slots that is available for us is only for second year man...that means..i will have to go to the stupid thailand again in augest...shit man...so getting the sword isnt a very good thing also eh?

for the past few days, feeling rather heavy, like a mixture of depress and restless. probably of the reply that i got.its the second time already...first time is annual parade in secondary sch. and now its my commissioning parade.. yea its quite disappointing...actually its very disappointing....nothing much i can do about it anyway..nvm ba..

maybe its time for me to stop going after the interchange... its sometimes too depressing to go on. no drive no motivation. baaa....

well well, life got to go on anyway.....its just whether its happily or sadly~watever man~




joce>> yea correct, million years. no news from u, never reply my sms nor my msn. its all ur fault la!!! =P
mel>>> ahaha..yea correct!! dun forget man!
pinky>> they are still bugging me la...and its getting more and more irritating...can't wait to get the freak out of the place
nana>>> =) anything to update not?

This post is dedicated to a close fren of mine.


everyone have problem.
everyone will fail.
who can say that watever things they do is always successful?

its only thru all this problems and failure,
that will make u appreciate every success and peaceful time u have.
u can be lousy now,
but doesnt mean u will be lousy later.
its thru hard times that u will realise who ur frens are.
but does it stop there?
alot of pple just stop there.
like "oh ok, these pple are my frens, and those are not."
but the fact is,this realisation is only half way.
when u realise who ur frens are,
u know that they will go all out to help u,
help u solve problems, help u get over things, give u watever support that u need.
and its ur responsibilty to actually listen to all this advice and stop thinking of the problem, and start thinking of solutions.
whats the pt of knowing who is ur fren but not taking their advises?
advices are just like keys.
ur problem is the lock.
and u are the link between the 2.
just by staring at the key doesnt help to unlock the lock.
u got to PICK up the key and slot it into the lock.
pple around are worried for u.
pple care for u.
and u know it.
but they are not just there for nothing
they are there so that u can depend on them,
use their strenght to get over whatever problem that u are facing.
cause if u dun,
they will feel as lousy as u do.
just because u got a problem means that u are the victim.
ur frens, whom u chose not to listen to or not to depend on,
will feel that they are the victims too.they wun feel any better.

all problems can be solve eventually.
and ur frens are ur catalyst to that.

i had a fren, who got some problems that i do not know of.
of course i do know abit here and there.
but she didnt tell me herself, so i have no right to comment on it at all.
all i know is, she is still suffering cause of that.
but if she can stop thinkin of the problem and look around her,
she will be surprise to see that she got soooo many frens that is worried for her,
dead worried.

so i say my fren...
dun let ur frens worry...
dun let pple who cares for u worry.
put down what should be put down long ago now.
move on.
dun look back.
its only den will u grow
grow to be stronger.
and while u are doing that,
be reassure that ur frens are always behind u.

its ok to let pple see the ugly sight of u puking after just a few drinks.
the impt thing is to get up after u puke and go for a second round~
right?

there is this bus interchange
and this passenger
so
years ago
long long time ago
the passenger came to this bus interchange
and came to like this place
he is happy with the surroundings, the weather, whatever things there, he felt so comfortable that he feels that he can stay here forever, he found the place he long to be at.
but after a while, the weather started to change, things started happening. floods,
droughts, snow, all the disasters u can think of...and he feels so helpless not being able to do anything bout it. he thought that if he leaves this place, he doesnt know if he is able to stay here anymore, or will the interchange able to keep him there anymore.
and got out of the interchange
so when he was on the bus
he tot that he is enjoying the new environment, the new journey
however, he misses the interchange alot...constantly, there will be flash back on the days he had at the interchange. he even misses the floods and the rain and the snow.
he decided that that bus ride is not for him
so he got off the bus
and start walking aimlessly
He wans to go back to the interchange, but he cant, for the interchange had already been somebody elses interchange. filled with remorse and regret..he have no choice but to continue moving on
but all the feelings he had for the interchange never did fade away
but of course, there is nothing he can do
so as he grows to like the interchange even deeper
dunno what got into him...
so he tried his best, telling himself to go on, move on
so he started wandering around again
travel travel travel
and out of the blue, he saw the interchange in sight
never did he felt so happy before in his life
but as he tries to walks towards it
the distance seems to be the same
he couldnt get any nearer
he wanted to reach the interchange
but he just can't seems to do it
it seems that the interchange is actually moving away from him
with sadness in his eyes, he can only watch the interchange from afar,
watching another guy taking care of it...maintaining it..
but never did he feel like giving up,
yes he feels the pain, the envy, the jealousy,
but, he still carry on walking, even knowing that no matter how hard he tries, the interchange will still be far away
deep inside him, he is just hoping and praying, real hard
that one day, the interchange will stop for him and allow him to go in once again..
he is still walking and walking towards the interchange.

the question ask has been non-stop..
thats what 1 day for mc and missing the interview can do to u.

"where were u yesterday?! wah lau u know the whole world is lookin for u?"
"u know Bravo wing lost the Sword of honour becaues of u? u sick also should have crawled here what!"
"wee jim!! why u let them walk over!!"
"wah lau u chee beh...u sick can tell me earlier what, den i can come out with a plot to make u come in and score more points."
" u know if u come u will stand a very high chance from getting??"
"the question they ask and the things they do u comfirm can answer and do well lor! nabei why u never come!!!"
"what happen to u yesterday?!??!"

above is just the few typical phrases the officers in my wing is bombarding me with...
but...i dun give a shit anyway.. =)

so i just brush off each comment with a sheepish smile.
fever is not i wan what...it just come.
and not like i'm the best in my wing, without me they wun be able to get it...
crazy pple..pls dun think too highly of me...i'm just a young guy.

ok today is vday.
so the wing decided to have a nights off.
so here i am at home
sleeping at home for a nite before booking in at 0645 am tmr morning.
quite retarded...

ohh i completed my NEED FOR SPEED (MOST WANTED)
cool man...bought new game..winning eleven 9...
brought it home
try to on
realise my psp is flat batt..and charger is in camp...
zzzz...

happy vday everyone!!

sword of honour,
most sort of award in ocs.
cause of all problems.
back stabbing, rivals, hatred, jealousy, gossips.
glory to ur family, ur sch, whatever things that can be link to you.

i dun like all this thing.
the sword is ok, the award is ok.
but what comes along with it is really a turn off.
all the problems, all the frenship lost, massive amt of responsiblity that comes along with it.stress, pressure, most of all, u need to know how to "wayang" at times.
thats damn pi gu.

thats why the sword was never my aim.
i just wanna sail thru this 38 weeks smoothly
just do what i can do
try what i can;t
dun do the immpossible.

life dun usually goes the way u wans to.
and now i'm chosen as 1 of the 3 in my wing to go for the interview for that stupid sword.
i dread it.
yes i do.
but no one believe,
at least most dun believe.
cause most dun understand.
yea i'm weird.
or is it i'm just afraid? coward? pussy?
scared of the interview, scared of whatever things that will come up after that.
no ambition at all.
whats this man...

god save me...
all i need is just one person that can understand...
1 is enough...

i dont wan to book in!!!
i wan to awol.....
damn sian..
i dunno why...
zzz...
like got things haven do it..
so cannot book in...
zzzz