Behind blue eyes....

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

Discover LIMP say it x4

No one knows what its
Like to be mistreated
To be defeated
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows how to say
That theyre sorry
Dont worry
Im not telling lies

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

sick again....
i'm so damn weak...
immune system is slowly breaking down i guess....
wake up as usual with a bad throat and bad nose...
den when i spit out my phlegm....
its bloody...
yes...the whole thing is thick...sticky.....and red.
so didnt go school.
went to the doctor,
throat infection is back again.
got 2 days mc...but don't know if going school tmr a not...
but got trainnig though....

anyway, my spiking has improve!!
yes!
never felt so happy and great before.....
the feeling of getting the ball across....with a steep angle and strength....
its just too great....wooo.....
got 8 out of 10 balls across! yea...
but well...there is no one i can share this joy with....
it doesnt concern anyone anyway...
nvm....i'm just happy that i finally made it....
but vball is still rather stressful for me..
i'm like the only one in the team that cares about whats going on?
what if the j1 leaves after first 3 mnths?? which is highly possible....
whats going to happen....arghhh...the thought of it is scary....
and i seems to be the one doing all the work...
even for the girls team...
the other cap also didnt bother to help.....
balls i take from the cage all the way to the court...
chairs from the staff room...
nvm...all this is ok..
but after training..
most of the time i still have to bring all this stuff back?
yes u all want to leave early...
don't i wan to do that too?
if u don't wanna keep the balls, at least offer to take the chairs back instead of just packing ur own stuff and just leave the court like that.
its not my job dude....
and u are also expecting me to lead the warm up and all this stuff....
so what the hell are u going to do?
ahh..forget it la....nvm...

is it that i overly "mature"?
or is it that u are just plain childish??
don't know...
ahh whatever la....
i don't need u all in my life anyway....
do whatever u all wan la...
not that i care.
not that i will change myself to suit u all...
kids.....
its time to grow up...

whatever it is...one step at a time
one problem at a time...if not, everything will just fall on u and u will just die.

no setter, fine.
spiker then.
no spiker, fine.
reserve then.
i've done my part.
i did not let myself down.
yup.

i begin to realise
i can learn fast.
but i can never seems to master any of them.
that means whatever i learn is just useless.

the closer u are to ur frens,
the more u see understand them,
the more u can't stand them??
because the little little things begin to show??
or is it because u begin to take note of those little little things?
and its those little little things that puts u off.

i'm fine with everyone.
u wan me to help,
i will help as long as u appreciate it.
i guess thats not very much to ask back in return? or is it?
so don't coming fucking blame me about stuff that i said wrong about something i don't even know about and you yourself don't even want to tell me. U just keep on saying i wont understand i won't understand. Yes i might not understand and if u wan a listening ear i'm there but for God sake when i try to advise or tell u my point of view u dun fucking come and blame me for not understanding ur problems when u dun even wan to tell me in the first place. it is time we have more sensitive people around.

Please people.
Do unto others what u want others do unto you.
if u don't feel good when people do certain stuff or say certain stuff to you,
they probably wont feel good when u do it to them too.
being angry and hot headed or depressed or irritated or whatever is NO excuse for not thinking straight.
So please think before you do anything or say anything to avoid hurting people unknowingly.