hmm..
i'm a bit confuse...
yes...
i don't know if i'm doing the right thing...
seriously...
not confuse about my feelings for u..thats of course...
i dunno...
i don't know what i am expecting...
i don't know what should i wan...yes..what SHOULD i wan..
and what i should ask for...
i don't wan to make the same mistakes that i made previously...
i wan this to be a nice and perfect relationship..
but i really dunno how i should go about doing it...
a wrong move now...can prove to be a disaster in the future...
yea i experienced that before.
yup..

some stupid feelings that i'm having that i'm trying to get rid of.
but well..its definately not easy.
its rather difficult i guess...
sometimes i just feel insecure...
ok thats another problem about me too..
i need security.
ok now i sound like a gu niang eh?
but i dont care....

yea...how?
what am i to do...
i'm all alone in this battle with myself..
no one care help me anyway...
there arent any solutions to this too...
its either i chose to accept it..
or i just to topple it....
but well...i guess i have to accept the challenge ba...
this is part of growing up isnt it? =)

well well...more things are coming i guess~
each day is a new day with new experience with ya~ ^_-
i just hope everything will be fine~
i'm sure i can work everything out...
yea..i'm sure of that...no problem...

luv ya...

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k this is not the real thing...i edited the whole lay out..so i can get the devil...i jus wan the Devil..yea..

You fear none but the infamous Fujiwara Tofu Hachi
Roku.


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i like this guy man...!

Not that you care, but... you're Takumi.


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Woo...I'm a happy man...haha...hope everything will be just fine..
Luv ya darling~~

yea 4-2!! won...
now waiting for the next game to come~~ 1 more hour before betting

so time spend surfing the net...and i aquired a new skill now!! haha..i know morse code!!! u know..those dots and dashes that ships usings thru telegrams...yea...i know them!! just need to listen more...and dots and dash somemore..den i thnk i can use it next time..haha..but need to memorise the chart...so rather irritating...but never mind..i think its quite cool!!! hahaa...

my name in morse code!!
-.|--.| .--|.|.| .---|..|--
| used to seperate the letters~~
cool ah?
hahaha...

anyway~ nothin already.
miss ya~~

waiting for second half to start for England vs Croatia...
haha... 2-1 so far...even though i didnt watch it on tv..its as exciting looking at the live updates online!! wooo i love rooney and scholes!!! haha..just as i tot its going to be bad after a goal from croatia in 7th min..this 2 scored in 40 and 45th min!!! hahaha...my heart just missed a bit man!! lol...yea...bet on England to win....

Been betting this euro cup for a while liaoz...didnt win much and didnt lose much....always win one and lose one...quite pek cek...clifford is the sway one la....haha..sway hand...but i'm still up by 40 bucks...if tonite;s match win...think will be up by 110...dunno la..but half goes to Emily anyway~~ share share bet...haha..but i'm sure more money will come... i need money for my guitar!!!

Anyway~ life this few days has been rather different for me....yup....this is a real change in my life-style now...thanks to u? =) and i like it..hehz...smiling whole day long and playing whole day long...but of course still go study la...

but this is my hp is failing on me.....msgs coming in without me knowing....they just show the envelope on the top!!! or msgs dun even come in at all!!! can u believe it... and my screen sometimes just goes off by itself...or the lights of my hp will fickled la....or what shit la...i just bought it like...start of the year or what....stupid nokia......argh....

so dont blame me for not replying msgs, or whatever shit...cause its not my fault!!!! blame it on the phone or M1 la....stupid company anyway...

oh ya..my com is still screwing me!!! what the hell is going on...formate and never formate....like no diff!! all the problems that causes me to formate are coming back!

ok nvm..KICK OFF SECOND HALF!

haha..
happy entry...
finally eh?

smurf smurf smurf~
forever smiling forever laughing
small slit eyes with a sharp chin
indecisive mind though.
but nevermind that. haha..
lil blue thing, lil bouncy thing
with a short sensitive neck
touch it and whole face will freeze
hahaa..cute cute cute

forever scorning forever suaning
calling me names and more names
but nvm that, doesnt matter at all.

dirty girl dirty cat silly monkey
doesnt like to bath at all
3 days didnt leave house
3 days no need to bath.

potatoes coming out from ur ear eh??
harvest them. since u are a farmer
see what price can u fetch
at least u can earn something for not bathing.

libra eh?
lets see what else about u.
Libra woman mostly has an egg oval facial shape.
She can be very naughty like a little boy, but yet fully 100% woman.
She likes to dress in black and wear perfume
she can really argue..
She always has a good reasons ,even she likes to contradict herself.

ok not too much yet la..slowly ba...

ok i think alot wun understand what i'm talking about...haha...

la la la la la la la la la la la~~ smurf song~~

i'm so irritated..with everything..with myself..
does lack of sleep really causes one to get upset easily?
don't know..but i'm really damn pissed off...

i hate pple who doesnt honour what they say.
"its ok, i'm fine with it. I just wan to play."
thats what u said 2 bloody days ago.
and today,
"waa..the 2 j1 girls like that...comfirm lose one la...can i pick my own girls?"
so what the hell am i going to tell the 2 j1s? "ohh so sorry..because u 2 are too lousy...no one wans u to be in their team"
and how the hell will they feel.
if i'm them, i'll be feel damn lousy.

and now because of this i got to crack my brain again...
to make sure everyone is happy...
its so hard to please everyone.
its not i never ask, i did!
and now this...freak...
and i cannot just ignore whatever is happening!
i really wish i'm a selfish bastard...

this stupid thing has been in my head the whole day...
i really dunno what to do...
my interest for the competition suddenly just died.
i dont wan to join anymore.
the competition that i looked forward since last yr...
now i hope it doesnt come at all...
how i wish i can just say "i'm not joining. u pple settle the teams urself.not my problem."
but i just cant do it.

from this u can see everyone's ugly side...
everyone wans to win....
they wan to be on the winning team...
no one cares about the others.
no one really care if everyone is having fun.
as long as they are.
as long as they win.
no one cares about no one no more.
so why should i care.

i can't possibly tell the j1s that they cant join.
the reason is just not valid.
argh...

what can i do.
what must i do.

does anyone understands what shit i'm going thru?
anyone?
i hope someone do...someone...just 1..and i will be very happy...

sigh...
ta ma de....

True.


A quiet simple man who can do something unexpected to shock you. Taurus man mostly medium tall, strong with good health, good strong body. When he talks, he likes to turn his head to one side on one direction. His body will be quite straight, facial structure tend to be square shape more than other shape. His eyes sparkle with liveliness. Even when he is in love, he is still a free wild bird. He is a sand in your palm, the more you want to hold it, it will slip out. If you stand and hold it still, it will stay that way. <>Don't set the rules and draw a line for him, he will not stay.

When you are with him, he will think only of you. But an hour later he could change his mind. He is very patient with other people, but very impatient with himself. His world always turning and it will not stop just because he loves you. If he up sets, he will show it right away. If something has gone wrong, he will <>blame his own carelessness instead of blaming other people. He sincere to his friends even to some friends <>he does not like. He likes to do odd things and surprise other people. He could be fully dress in a nice suit and jump in the pool. He could slap your back so hard just to make you turn around to see he has flowers in his hand. He never want to get too close with anyone for he thinks living in reality is living by yourself. He does not care what people think when he behave weird<>. He could be walking bare feet and laughing at people who laugh at him and think they are so narrow minded. He does not likes to follow conformity, but always want to search for new ventures, new mystery. He will interest in a life of a millionaire as much as a life of an old man selling newspaper on a sidewalk vendor.

He like to search and analyze people and things. He will analyze his friends or his girl friend, and once the mystery is gone, he will search for new puzzle to solve. He can not easily understand thing, so he will gradually learning about you till he fills up all his questions. He knows so many people ,but he has a few friends. He looks for quality friends than quantity friends. He will be close with some friends shortly and move on. He always feel lonely even surround by many people. He could create his own little world, and sometimes <>no one would understand him<>. He looks only for future and he thinks he lives for the future. He may wonder how many people think like he does, but he does not want to be like the others.

A man with a conflict personality. He is a cool, understanding, able to work well, and very artistic. Taurus man could be an artist. He could shock you as much as he is able to clam you down when you up set. He is a free spirit who likes venture, but when he wants to be alone, do not touch him but to let him be. He won't disappear from the crowds too long, he will be back. He will give you straight forward opinion or comments, but will never advice what he thinks you should do. He does not like people to tell him what he should do too. He thinks each individual dreams and thoughts should be very private. He will use his brain not his body strength, so he will let other guys compete. He has a certain satisfactory in life and <>hate to force himself in competition. He may seems careless, but actually he is a thinker and a stubborn one.

He sees anythings in details and not easily trusted people till he thinks he knows them well. You can just smile and he will think why and what are you smiling about, and if you are pretending. Once he trust you and accept you as a friend, no one can says other wise to change that for he will not listen to gossip. He will be honest and sincere to his friends. He hates lies, so he will not tell you lies. If he finds it is necessary to lie, he will find other ways not to tell you or avoid telling you anything. If he really has to lie, you will never be able to tell that he is lying. He can really keep secrets, so you will hardly know that he is a lonely soul. If you want this kind of guy, you have to be an interesting person. He has to be curious about you. Hell for him is "No Freedom", so if he marry you then you should know it is the biggest decision in his life. Always be interesting, then you could have him beside you.

N	Neat
G	Graceful
W	Wicked
E	Elitist
E	Easy
J	Jealous
I	Important
M	Modern

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I'm freaking piSSED off...

first my com is pissing me off...dunno what the fuck is wrong with it...cant even execute a proper command...eat dirt..

Den the class. Chalet is tmr and pple are like pulling out last min??! wtf! everything is going to be screwed la...fuck man....hello! this is a chalet!! not a movie outing or what!screw u.

Fuck..real fuck...wtf u all wan to do now?
wtf u all wan me to do!?
everything also last min last min
and still wan to make last min changes and expect everyone to go with it?
over my dead body.
Now isnt the best of time for all this to happen
first i'm losing sleep
den this
den that
den what else!
shit u all
shit the whole world
fuck it!
and FUCK OFF!

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