If you are afraid of making mistakes,
you will not be able to do anything.

Worrying is like a rocking chair.
Something for you to do,
getting you no where.

In life, there is alot of if.
What if this happen, what if i do this.
If only i've done this, if only i didnt do that
if if if
plenty of if
if makes our world more imaginative
if used correctly and properly,
it enable people to dream,
it gives people hope.

But if it is being used negatively,
it will only pull u down.
negative emotion will arise from u.
u start to doubt urself
u dun even trust urself anymore.
u begin to be skeptical about things that will happen,
about people, about urself.

There are lots of things in our life,
that we have not try before.
our only source of info can just be the word of mouth.
and if people are sharing with us positive experiences,
we usually will be more receptive towards the things that they did.
But if its a negative experience,
we will be scared to even try it.
And we eventually, or maybe subconciously, are denying ourselves from what we
really want, or who we really are, or simply just letting good opportunities passby.

If we dont try it,
we won't know the outcome.
Its always better to regret doing,
then to regret not doing it.
Just a difference between 50% success,
Or 100% failure.


rubbish of the day again...

The world in equilibrium.

Always balanced. No matter what u have, there is always a counter to it.
Fire, water. Criminals, police.
Love, hate. Friends, foe.
The good, the bad. Pretty, ugly.
there are lots and lots of it.
thats how the world is balance.
we see them in our daily life.
but what i see is the most important pair,
is differentiation and integration.

This pair is almost totally correlated to all the pairs.
Being able to differentiate between the rest of the pairs is crucial in our lives.
being able to differentiate our feelings is important.
Lovers, Friends, Foes.
But then again, no one can really differentiate feelings,
that is why love hate relationship exists.

There is a different between people who wants help, and people who needs help.
Usually, people who wants help doesnt really help themselves.
And people who needs help, usually doesnt need help at all as they can find their own solutions.
The word is usually.
So only offer ur help to people who needs it, not people who wants it.
Entertain people only if they are sincere, if not u are just wasting ur time.

Being nice to people, people will think nice about u.
Being too nice to people, People tend to take u for granted.
and it won't be long before the unappreciated feeling get better of u.
Dun blame them, thats just how things work.
No one ever remembers how good u are, but how bad u are will clearly embeds into their mind.
All it takes is one wrong move/decision.

Thats how we work isnt it?
People will tell u about all the embarrassing things u have done before, even if its years ago.
Did anyone tells u how nice u were when 5 or 8 years back?
I doubt so. Maybe during ur wedding that is. Or during ur funeral.

Feeling unappreciated is one of the worst emotion.
Doing so much yet not being recognised
Doing so much yet not being acknowledge.
whats worse than waiting aimlessly for something that u know might not happen?
Hanging onto the hope that it might really happen?
Then we have to look at the entire situation and weigh ur probability that it will actually happen.
Look at all the factors that is involved. And i mean all.
Look at whatever u have gone through. Think about why did it come down to this point whereby u have to wait. After analysing all these, think again. What outcome is it gonna be.
If its still all good, then u are good to go.
But if all the odds are against u, and there is a clear situation, den dont waste ur time. U get better returns investing those time somewhere else.

oh dear....talking rubbish again...
but then..whats new. haha

Hmmm....
how should i start
what should i write

falling in love is easy
getting someone to love u is hard.
maintaining the love u both have is the harder.
Splitting is the hardest.

falling in love.
just like how a kid saw a candy in the shop
something new
something interesting.
den this little kid when try to find out more about this sweet.
where is it produce from, what is its contents, is it sugar free,
and most importantly, does it have the flavour he wans.

some kids failed to see this point about the flavouring. they are so attracted by the packaging, the content, and they thought that with all this, the flavouring will change and they will like it. but they are wrong. There is no point choosing a sweet that is of a wrong flavour, and tryin to change them after that. its will not be the initial sweet anymore.

going after a girl.
is it easy? or is it difficult?
of course its never easy if u are me.
and it is especially difficult if u met a girl who like to escape.
imagine u are in a fighter jet.with the girl u are after. and there u are tryin to get her attention. and there she is enjoying the clouds. and when u are tired of it. she started talkin to u again. and the cycle goes on and on. and infront of u, there is a very big red button. called the eject button. u can press it if u wan to give up. or maybe she will press it. so what are u going to do?
the hardest part is when u tell the girl how u feel, and yet she is not showing u any signs of green light or red light.

now maintaining a r/s
its just like how people maintain a plane.
without oiling, when problems are spotted and not solved, it will always remain there. if it bangs onto something, it will be dented or scarred. the worst will happen when both the pilot and the technician fake ignorance about what is happening and continue with the flying. end result? crash. it also work if 1 party is not interested in the plane anymore. end result: not flying at all.

and of course, splitting up.
the most famous qns from an outsider is, who ask for it?
and the most famous sentenced laid by them will be " the breaker will be the bad guy"
and no one actually cares about what really happen. all they wan to know is the above points. and harsh remarks will all come down to the guy that ask for it. harsh phone calls. harsh smses in the middle of the nite. but what can that guy say? just keep quiet if he is like me. it greatly depends on his tolerance lvl, and who gave him those remarks. whether its the truth or not doesnt matter anymore. he just wan the whole thing to be history and dun ever wan it to resurface again. he is not a robot. he is a human too. just a normal human being that wans his own peace and quiet, that wans to choose his own life, find his own love.

if u are ever reading this.
this is a note for u.

i know u have suffered alot cause of me
for that im sorry.
just to let u know, i aint having a good time too.
but life have to go on.
we have to open ourselves up to new pple.
experience more things. den we will treasure whatever that will come or came or had left.
there is certain stuff tat i will not tell u.
cause there will be lots of casual link to it.
at the end, i wan u to move on.
cause i already did.
watever happened happened.
watever will happen, will happen.
so lets just forget about everything and that it as a lesson learnt, and move on with our lifes.